I just want someone to say they want me just as much as I want them. To stop looking at my past, my past doesn’t define me, I have made so many choices that I wish I could take back but I have changed and those mistakes made me a better person because of what I have learned from those mistakes. The person I am not is not the person I once was before, and if you wanted a perfect girl, look somewhere else, I am not perfect, I will never be perfect, If you want someone with no problems, look somewhere else. I am the same person you once fell in love with, you say you thought I was someone different, someone you had pictured in your head? I can do the same thing, imagine someone so perfect but guess what, then I will never find that person because the person I imagine in my head is not real. Continuing to tell me that i need to forgive and forget, to learn to let go, well guess what I have, I let go of my past, now its your turn, stop letting my past affect my furture, because if you continue to look in the past you will never get anywhere with anyone. its just ruining the present.
I have done some things I am ashamed of, but the part that makes me mad is that i trusted you with so many of my secrets and I trusted you with the truth and you turned around and threw it back in my face, and you chose to believe people that hate me, that don’t like me, that want to start shit with me because they enjoy drama, you believed people before me, you let them inside your head, and instead of defending me, you continued to just believe them, believe the lies. You ask me why? ask me why would people make up shit, guess what its because they do. People will make up shit all they want just because they can. Stop constantly looking at my past, have i ever done any of that to you?
Did i ever cheat? - No
Did I ever lie about anything important? - No
DId I ever INTENTIONALLY do ANYTHING to ever hurt you or us? - No
Did i love you with everything I had? - Yes
DId i do everything to make sure we were happy? - Yes
Did you talk to me about anything wrong? - No
and you reason, was because you didnt want me to be upset.
Guess what, relationships arent perfect,
you have to fight for them, you will fight with your other, you will argue, hell you may fight all the time, but should you compare it to your other relationships? No. why you ask because they are YOUR PAST relationships, not future not present, not right now .They are in your past for a reason.
Everyone quotes the notebook,
“They didn’t agree on much. In fact they rarely agreed on anything. They fought all the time and they challenged each other everyday…”
Well that’s what we do. We fight. You tell me when I’m being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are being a pain in the ass. Which you are 99% of the time. I’m not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a two second rebound rate and yoru back do doing the next pain in the ass thing.
i want you to look at me the way you use to look at me, i want you to want me.